This is not a delusion. Although it is gas-lighting me to question my own sanity.
This is the result of helping people that are in fact beyond my help -- I feel now threatened Beyond help.
this guy needs to be institutionalized I'm telling you --- for at
least carefully taught boundaries to the consequences of breaking
boundaries in people's lives when it is obvious that I have made those
efforts of boundaries here in this space. To the degree he violates to
now repeats this again and again -- I have had to place to the record on
Souncloud Casecase of Mawuna Harris #1 and #2 : #2 is more serious that
#1 -- but #1 it now not clothes but paints that he has here in this
space. Which is true. I give him that he really should schedule this
with me that just arriving at the door. But I will conceede to to his
URGENCY of needing it now --- he cannot come in here and absuse the
right of dialogue with me until he can surely know he has had
consequences of not being welcomed here because of his dishonesty. Come
back in an hour. Well, he did not arrive in an hour.... he waited till
all the way till 2am to oince again arrive AFTER HOURS at this intercom
thinking this is not already apparently a normal common decency barrier
that he is about to break again with me, he dialed up my number again
2am people thinking this is OK. IT'S NOT! The really disturbing part of
this is -- with the "test effect" of the lights ON FULLY in the front
room till I awaken shortly before 2am -- then get up and perform a task
of test to the walking outside and up the alley to be caught onto
building security cameras of a quick in/out of the building --
reflecting that was my intent because knowing I have not effectively
secured an understanding with this man, I already question he is
stocking, he is absolutely second time period stocking me. I turn down
the lights to effectively all lights low --- and go to start some work
on my computer to the degree I just woke up. He does not know that I
was alsleep and now awake-- and if he does -- he is disturbed to be both
monitoring me of the lights from outside and then also cyber-stocking
me to the presence of my online status which highly unlikely that would
serve anything anyway since I have DEPARTED ONLINE ACTIVITY MOST ALL
FORMS as a continuous online presence for many many weeks now. So not
more than 5 minutes after I start to my work, the door intercom is used
to dial into this space at 2:02am -- All of which this is UNDESERVING of
any response -- but here is that ONLINE DOCUMENTATION of response
placed onto the sound cloud. I am giving Case-notes #2 more weight here
than #1 --- but both serve as truth to the actions --- I do not know
what to do with this guy -- I cannot hold space for him here -- whether I
am here by myself or have already present company. Or anything if he
cannot follow my directives. Its too much his chaos out of boundary of
my need to control such chaos in a space dedicated to peace building.
There is a a lesson here -- he knows has been a part of his time here.
He is not listening to me, individually or the lesson plan work here. I
cannot and will not subject myself to this guy who does not truly
suffer of consequences from breaking boundaries with people. I am off
my wall of wit to do this alone.